My life has officially overturned by the super awesomeness of God. For the last 1-2 months, things have been so utterly unpredictable. God chooses to reveal His uberness to me. I'm so blessed. Haha. I've never ever felt so fulfilled and happy in my life =D
Don't get it wrong, being a Christian doesn't mean I'm going to start marching on the street with a flag that says repent or go to hell. We DON'T do that. There is a depth and still yet mysteries of Christianity. It's amazing, perplexing, and (was, is, and will) never an easy road to take, but exceedingly worth it nonetheless. It gives us reason and hope. I don't know, like. I don't think there is a word exist in this world to describe the butterflies of glee in my stomach. I'm not going to start averting the purpose of this sketch blog into a preach blog. But let me say this one thing:
Give Christianity a chance. Fully open your heart and mind, for once set aside everything, and ask God very sincerely to reveal Himself to ya. Chances are you will not see an angel descends from nowhere into your room and it suddenly floods with blinding light. What I'm saying is, feel it. Do you feel a slight difference inside? If do, cultivate it. I believe God WILL do that if you are truly being honest. It's such a precious thing, the feeling that you get fully knowing that there IS a God who cares.
Yeah. I totally filled up another (pocket-size) moleskine, and bought a larger version of it. It fills up fast. I've been drawing like a machine. Haha.
Here's a page:
Original photograph is taken by Steve McCurry.
(Phaidon.com)
I'm merely doing one of his photographs (the one on the right)
For some totally inexplicable reason, this one particular photograph (taken at Feyzabad, Afghanistan, 1990) really catches my attention.
There's a furtive strong emotional appeal that just totally intrigues me. Words fail me.
Anyway, my point is, I've been thinking for the longest time on what I'm going to become.
Honestly, and I am frankly do not mean to gloat or whatever, I could probably easily live off my life becoming an animator or freelance illustrator or whatever if I continue doing whatever I've been doing. But I think I'm beginning to see what God wants me to do. I dunno. I am not yet completely sure, and there is an over 90% chance that I'd change my mind about this; I want to become a traveling artist. Maybe doing a journal blogger or something relevant.
I want to travel around the world, rich and poor, good and bad, and just like, to experience it. I feel like my life would be too short and futile if I don't take an unorthodox step further than most people.
Iunno. I'm probably saying nonsense right now. But yeah, I want to use this "gift" for the goodness of other people. I don't want to yearn for personal fame. Iunno. This is so totally crazy stuff I'm saying.
This very same reason drives me to strive.
=D
2 comments:
I think it's really cool that you're able to talk so openly about your feelings on God and religion. And wanting to go out and travel and see the world - that's great spirit you've got there! I'm happy for you that you know what you want.
Lovely sketch too - her right eye is done beautifully!
Thanks =D
Yeah. I actually did more. I just don't have time to post it up because I'm having a series of ridiculous midterms right now =\
The perks of being a college student. YAY SARCASTICALLY =D
You should see the actual photograph(s). It's so sad knowing that we, the rich (or not so much) are coexisting with one of the most destitute areas ever known. Like, the juxtaposition between the rich and the poor is so great, it's not even funny =\
From that, I learn to complain less and to sympathize more.
I can get very emotional sometimes lol.
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